The swing night!

Last Saturday was kind of a sporky day for me...i was extremely devastated due to the feel of lonelyness esp during weekdays ,these days Karthik has been working long , he himself is tired of it,though.. i always try my best not to show my feeling of distress to him cos,i know how hard it is to keep up the pace in his job, being the survival of the fittest, you ought to sacrifice certain things for it... but when this happened even on the weekend, i lost control of my own self and became very angry that i dint talk to him when he was back and we went to the park sat down ,he was so sweet and patient,spoke from my shoes ,said he understands my situ ,appologised to me ,kept gazing at my face if i will ever look at him...i was so rude then,i dint even turn his side...then came another offfice call for him at 9.30 pm when we were in the park...hmm,made me still more pissed off,i walked to the swing and was swinging ,where i met a swing friend that day,we started talking first about the intro stuff and we came to the topic of husband's work,her husband was also in the call behind us and my husband was in his call a few feet ahead of us,so we ladies got a common topic which we were ready to throw upon.She opened up first telling,uh !i dont know how long he will continue with this office call even on weekends!..yeah ,i am in the same mood ...just lets pour it out was my intention at first, yeah it was pretty much like venting out our anger but at the same time we knew it is not their fault and both of us dint have the nerve to blame our husband's rather as time passed by we were actually speaking about how hard they have to work day and night sacrificing their sleep too for this job,me being the newly wed one she asked me a few ques,and thats when i realised how my husband wants to keep me comfortable and happy inspite of his brain eating job...she also gave me a valid point saying that we become very close to our partner only when we are here cos,we have no body else here to complain about him,and when you have hard feelings about him,you will definetly have to approach him and make things clear....that was a very valid point,which made me think... I always forget to realise how close a bond we share after coming here cos of the time factor and also both of us have only each other here...so,my mind was crystal clear then,i thanked my unknown swing friend,felt really good to have met her that particular day,waved a good bye to her...went back to my hubby ,told him why i behaved like that ,appologised for having turned back to him before and felt to keep in mind how beneficial is this lone time for me here with my husband ,esp few years after marriage before we could leap into other commitments this lone time will make us understand each other better ,love each other better and create a strong bond for the rest of our lives....hope i keep reminding myself about this and never feel bad or lonely about being here...:)....

Feel the heat!....

i have been longing to write this particular blog since i got married and stated to take care of the family ....
yeah ,it is about being a homemaker....it ain't a easy job.....here i appreciate my mom's day to day toil to make our day complete......
i used to be a lazy goose who wants to have everything spoon fed,like,starting from my bed coffee...and by not doing my bedding ...wanting food where i am ...and lazy even to attend the door bell...my mom never used to complain us for behaving like this,instead she used to feel bad what will i do when i have to be myself and manage things by myself...
i dint realize that till the day i started my life in my own nest,where there is no one to tell me do this do that...well,at first i thought ...uh...finally, there is no one to question me did you do this & that...but ,later when i had to be the starter in everything and if i sleep the day will be off....and when i started to do all the chores i felt the sacrifice that my mom did for us.....:)....i felt the heat of kitchen,where i never used to be before marriage...
but still..,to not make me feel the heat fully,my hubby used to take up and help me doing the work in weekends ,cos even he understands the heat of a women in kitchen...:).....
but,this makes me a lazy goose in weekends, though....:)...
so,here goes a cheers! to my MOM and my HUBBY !...

this is for my wonderful DAD!

yesterday at 3 pm in the evening suddenly i had a feeling that i should go for swimming now...its always like that with me...its all in a sudden and has to happen at any cost...thats why its difficult for many ppl to keep up to my pace...in that case even my husband Karthik will not be able to do it.....
coming back to the matter,accordingly ,when i went, the pool was being cleaned and i was waiting in the pool area for almost an hour,finally was so desperate that i went and asked Bren(the person cleaning the pool) when he will finish it..he said it will be good in another 5 Min's and ready for my to splash in...
good ,with a hell lot of anxiety i was waiting, even though, certain things were running in my mind,like if ppl in the apt will watch and the shy issues ...inspite of all this i was sure that am going to swim that day so,dint bother about all those stuff much...
when i jumped into the pool it was good ,a little extra chlorine i thought at 1st...swam for an hour and when i got out of the pool i had a blurred vision ,burning strawberry eyes and couldn't see the person standing in front of me too ...managed to reach my apt and was rolling in my bed cos of pain and anguish but i cant call Karthik amidst his work,nor my dad who is over seas to know if I'll become blind or is it ok....well,finally after an hr of struggle came back to a stage were i could open my eyes...made sure i can see things.....still,i was happy that i did what i wanted to do...when i felt happy for my accomplishment i dint forget to think of my DAD who is the reason for this and many other things in my life....who inspite of our fussiness taught many extra curricular activities which i am able to relish it each and everyday now....:)....luv you dad...!!

starting as a time pass...Bhagavad Gita"The science of spirit"

am a lover of writing.......may not be perfect but gives me satisfaction......
for a long time i have been waiting to create a best blog,but i found lately only by practice i can make things best.....so,here goes my 1st blogging....
this interest in blogging has also increased my reading habit which was 1 in a scale of 10....my first book that i chose to read is BHAGAVAD GITA ...
i have heard about The BIBLE, QURAN and read a few gosspils in The bible too....but when i jus thought about what i know about the B.G ....and even when i asked a few elders at my home,very few had an idea about the book....this made me inquisitive to know about what the book says...
Well,coming to what i am grasping from the book....
the first and foremost conversation which created an impact for me was as it says:

"The motive for the action must be the action itself and not the reward"......for the man who doeth that which he hath to do, without attachment to the result, obtaineth the Supreme.......in chap 3
DEVOTION THRO RIGHT PERFORMANCE OF ACTION......hence that became my motivation in begining this blog......seeking no appreciation ..but only for my self satisfation.....to attain my satiety to write......:)........